What is love?

Sometimes love is just a memory. A fleeting moment that once was. A smile, a look, a hug... A long-forgotten dream. A face you once loved. A person that no longer is. Love throws its shadows over the meadows of our mind, dangling on, refusing to let go, entwining in the labyrinths of slippery emotions. It may delve so deep into our being that we forget... Forget we were once loved. Then suddenly a scene from a movie, a voice, a touch uplifts the veil of forsaken hopes and we remember... The shadow was once real. We were there. We lived. And loved. Something that no longer is once glowed in our lives and left us feeling eternal... The memories rush back and we get a shot of energy in our blood system. It could be so wonderful if only it didn't hurt so much. The excruciating pain and the outburst of tears tell us we never really got over it. We buried the memory somewhere deep inside, locked it up and threw away the key. We hoped it would never resurface, swore we would never let it get to us again, ordered our mind to forget... Then one day the memory awakens from its coma. Doesn't matter anymore what triggered it off, there it is- a slap on the soul, an electric shock on the heart, a past gone wild... Life never turns back. It never stops. It only goes forward at a scary pace, threatening our sanity, mocking our happiness, defying all laws of reason. So much for amnesia! Face to face with our worst nightmare, a question screams in our face: Will I ever be loved again? Will this happen to me once more? Will I have the sense to recognize and live out the feeling? Will this, too, end some day...? How many times have you given up on love? Only to yearn for it with an even stronger passion. Love goes by its own rules. It comes uninvited and goes away at its own will. We are left counting the shattered pieces of our being, cursing memories and pleading for mercy. No one cares how you feel. No one gives a damn that you are hurting right down to the marrow of your bones. No one sees the pain in your eyes... The tornado was here. And now it's gone. And you are a living wreck, seduced and abandoned by a beautiful myth. You can search all you want, you will never find that kind of love again. Not now, not ever. Not in this lifetime. Your only hope is a second lifetime... Until then close your eyes and wander along the ethereal paths of your mind. Dream on. Memories will come and go. One memory will linger on. One love. One hope. One dream... Yes, we want it all. We want the fireworks and flowers, the euphoria and the breathlessness. The everlasting story and the happy ending. The promise of eternity and the never-ending feelings. What an illusion! The biggest one of all. Do you still want the illusion in your life? Are you game for the sacrifice? Do you really think it's worth the pain? Remember- one day you will just want to forget that it ever happened. Because it will remind you every second that you are weak and vulnerable and just a hopeless dreamer... The pain will never truly go away. Is it worth it? Let me be. Leave me alone. Let my love remain a memory... Hopefully, forever.